MARISSA DE LEON
Almost two years ago I received the worst phone call of my life! Confirmed! It's "cancer"! Breast cancer!
I did not know what to think! I did not know what to say! I was helpless.
All of sudden, I have so many hospital appointments...I have to be in the hospital almost every day! Two or three appointments in a day! I have to talk to different doctors, nurses, social worker, you name it...
Surgery happened so quickly...next was chemotherapy! The “evil” treatment...10 days after my 1st session of chemo, I lost my hair! It was physically excruciating and I was emotionally beaten up.
I survived 4 series of chemo treatment...thank God! But treatment doesn't end there.
Radiation was scheduled right after...daily for 6 weeks...5 minutes to dress up and 5 minutes for the radiation process. No big deal right! I thought I was fine until the final week. I was getting weary! Exhausted! Burned skin! Sting! But I did not give up hence I made it!
Recovery time! Oh goodness, how could I be so worn-out? But wait, my hair is growing back...slowly!
Why do I have cancer? What did I do? Why me? How could this happen to me? I am not a saint but definitely not a bad person so why me? These were my questions and no one can answer them...
Knowing that I do not have the right to question God but I turned to Him.
Well, God knows my sufferings and all He ask is to remain faithful to Him. Trust Him, do not worry and He will take care of me. I may have been praying daily but I think it wasn’t hard enough. Therefore, I prayed harder...I certainly not prayed this much in all my life. I went to church even when I can't get up. I pleaded for His forgiveness and mercy.
Cancer drew me closer to God. I felt His love. He opened my eyes. He showed me His love in so many ways. He gave me all the reason to fight and live. I have a wonderful husband who’s taking care of me. My kids. My whole family helped me with this battle. And friends all over the world prayed for me...
I may have lost my breasts but I gained love and respect. There may be time that I am physically weak but in return I acquired stronger spirit. I lost my long dark hair but look at me now, I get compliments everywhere I may be with the hair I have.
I may have cancer but I will never give up! I may not able to do few things but I still can accomplish a lot of things…and to name a few…visit different states/places, watch my kids play sports, attend my yearly high school reunion, grow old with my husband…my list can go on and on…
Life is too short! Enjoy and be thankful!